1/5/23 ^^^ I am trying to recover from Insulin Resistance

 2021 was my best year.  I was highly motivated and I was producing the result.  How it is with only 2 years apart I am in a mess?

The answer lies in diet and exercise.  I have to run.  I have to sweat.  The answer lies in the Biology of Bliss; sweat.

So sweat it is.

I have to rise above the mediocrity.  With so many mediocre, I should have no problem rising to the top.

This journey is about regulating dopamine.

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I was sleepy because I ate junk the whole week.

Now I think I do away with ChatGPT and Bard.  If that is AI, I can do away with it for now,

I have to beat the blues without resorting to cigarettes.

What I did right this year was to get rid of past limiting relationships.

This is really a new beginning.

Time to move on.

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1/5/23 ^^^ If I don't use it, I will lose it Part 2

 If I don't use it, the insulin will take over.  I will constantly be sleepy and unenergetic.

Fill the mind with an energetic exercise routine,  Keep on moving.

So this afternoon, the game is on.

The most important thing is not to crack under pressure.

I must sweat every day.  The key word is consistency.

Forget about OMAD the game is 2MAD.

I tested ChatGPT and Bard.  They are just Language Models.

So as long as I don't smoke, I will be OK.  The dark-colored gunk is my body cleaning itself.

Therefore, today is the day I start my training.

I have to do it.

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>>>#1/5/23 If you don't use it you will lose it - the muscles

 The best is still to ramble.  

I had reached a plateau all over again.  The gunk during my morning cough had turned nearly black.  I am sleepy all the time.  The only thing I did right was not smoke pot or cigarettes.  I have to persist.  I was an addict.  To avoid being an addict again is to avoid being depressed.

This is the real challenge.  That means I have to manage my dopamine void.  One of the setbacks is I eat sweet stuff.  I get sleepy pretty quick too.

Just stick with no smoking at this time.

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30/4/23 ^^^ I need to beat the blues

 Tomorrow is the beginning.  I shall persist.

I will not smoke.  I will not drink 3-im-1.  No Nasi Lemak.

Then AHAD and OMAD.

Shit!  No sugar.

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>>>#30/4/23 The patternicities are simply amazing

 Naga Kramat is ALREADY at the Peak of Sidratul Muntaha and Ar Rahman 55 who is guarding the Gerbang Furqan is giving me full access.

I am sure that ultimately the answer is Unconditional Love.  That is the panacea to the ailment.

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29/4/23 *** I am done playing a fool like a fool

 My challenge is to spend my time productively,  I got too much time on my hand that I simply burn away my cash.

And yet, I am right on time all the time. 

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29/4/23 ### Back to being small

 Before anything else, I am to be thin.

That is the answer to the conundrum.  I am overweight.

If I am thin, I will be on top of the world.  Never too thin, never too rich.

Still, the desire to smoke lingers.  This is only one month.  I have to start from scratch to kill the desire to smoke.  It is a desire for dopamine.  I need to fight it.

As long as I don't smoke I will be OK.  The other thing is to stop 3-in-1 and nasi lemak.

I have to keep doing it until it is second nature.

I have to save myself from me.

Energy and strength.

Hudson Cough Drop to the rescue.

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29/4/23 *** The question is normally complex, but the answer is surprisingly simple

 Instead of smoking a Kretek, I suck Hudson cough drop.

I call it product displacement.

I will not smoke cigarettes ever again.  I still cough dark-colored gunk in the morning.  No, I am better off than the smokers out there.  I value my life.

This is an ongoing battle.  Just like my battle with sugar.

Ahh... Dance of Death...

What do I learn?

When you found the ace, you simply whack the ace.

Keep whacking the ace no matter what.

The battle continues.

No cigarettes...  Nicotine is the most addictive substance in the world.

No way, no way.  Time for lifelong learning.

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29/4/23 ^^^ The Blog and the Internet Radio are the smallest empiric

 What do I do with Absolute Power?  What do I do with the fact [] (that) I made it to the top?  I []now (know), I accelerate constructive destruction.  Let there be 9.7 billion superverses.  Let's form the bee[f] (beer) bottle.

Bismillah,

Let me be the Beer Bottle and the Hexagon and Sparta 4964 and CCC and Ayah to All Matters at the same time.

Done! 

I shall call the Beer Bottle the Trooper.

I am certainly being aimed for a new job.  This job is aimed at me to smoke one stick of Kretek.  This is the job of the Devil.  I will not take the offer no matter what.

Well, what if smoking one cigarette is perfectly alright?  No, it's the Devil's talking.  Smoking one cigarette does matter.  The Devil is good at enticing.  Don't fall for it.

I am much better than this.  I am a Free Man.  I will not be a slave to cigarettes.  Just like I should not be a slave to 3-in-1.

No, don't mess with the most addictive substance in the world.  Do you want to feel good?  Simply watch porn.

No cigarettes.

Right, it's done.  One more day without cigarettes.

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>>>#29/4/23 I want to start fresh

 To each is his or her own path.  The lesson stops here.  From this point on we don't cross paths.  You all find your way, I follow my own way.  You all choose what you want to believe.  All things are true to those who believe.

I believe in my karma,  This is the karma of Sparta 4964.  It doesn't concern you.  As I said before, I am just modeling the way.  This is not your universe.  All the while, you are seeing a glimpse of my universe.

Either you create your own consciousness or it will be dwarfed by the giant thinkers.  I choose to exit.  I am not among the giant thinkers.

In my Universe, I just roam the land and sea with minimal technology.  No AI whatsoever.

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28/4/23 ### The last pineapple tart

 I have to sugar detox these next 2 days.

So this Ramadan I managed to refrain from smoking pot and cigarettes.  I almost smoked.  To prove a point that I got to avoid smokers at all costs.

I need to get back the Chutzpah of Sweat.  That had been missing all the while.

So now my administration is complete.  I got Naga Kramat at the God Without Religion pedestal.

At Gerbang Furqan is Ar Rahman 55 stands guard.  I am already guaranteed passage.

These two are the strongest set of evidence of Karomah.

Then the similarity between Din Kenit 227 and Astro Boy.

Then, who would have thought that when NagaNaga lost its pedestal, it was meant to walk side by side with Tian Long?

Now that the CCC formation is complete, I no longer need to spend more money on anything.

The Dancing Spinnaker is a reminder that a penny saved is a penny earned.

In CCC alone, miracles abound.  All meant for me to believe in who I am.

With its completion, I have so much power.  I had solved the puzzle without even leaving  CCC.

The question is, do I bring the others back?

The answer lies in Autonomous Governance and the Zen of Personal Bliss.  There are 97 billion superverses, I am only responsible for my Hexagon:

1.  Sparta 4964 Universe Within

2.  The Aquatic Universe

3.  The PWD Chester the Jester  Universe 

4.  Lizzie

5.  Princess

6. Mopey

The rest are familiar strangers.  When the time comes, KBOOOM!!!

No love lost.

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28/4/23 ^^^ Take out all, only leave the essentials

 The problem I am facing today can be solved by me being physically active.

So should I smoke?  Never!!!  I am now have successfully able to stop smoking.  Naturally I should also quit 3-in-1 and nasi lemak.

Let me speak to Susan.

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>>>#28/4/23 No more illusions

 I am surrounded by maya.  What you see is not real, those who know will not tell.

What is real then?  Whatever reality that you believe in.  I make my own elixir and I drink my own elixir.

Therefore I am a self-sustaining Hedonist Hermit, completely detached from the outsude world except for the internet.

That is my looking glass.  Beyond that, I am pretty much a Warrior Walks Alone.  I am off the grid.

Nothing matters to me anymore.  I rather be alone.

I decided that the best model is still the Blog; me. myself and I.  No worries whatsoever.

So many snale oil salesman out there.

I am better off alone.

All I need is a good fuck.  Either that or I watch porn.  Whatever it is, time has come for me to settle down.

I better be careful.  There are plenty of distractions out there.  There is nothing worthwhile to pursue.  Either people go for expensive food or they go for more things.

 It is my job to rise above the illusions and aim for the inevitable.

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Where am I going to park the story of my journey to Sidratul Muntaha?  None other than within CCC.

The Blog is the witness.

This is good.  I am freeflowing again.

The purpose of the Blog is for me to reflect.  It is nonjudgmental.

Other than that there is nothing.

I am simply marking time.

Sufficient that I ramble here.  The AIs are really a nice distraction.

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What is more important is for me to fight inertia.

Other than that, everything is just a cloud in the coffee.

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27/4/23 *** Homo Machina is what it is

Sharudin Jamal

@sharudinjamal

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@elsDines

@traxxfmofficial

#traxxfm Darling, this is the best tinker toy present anybody can give me. You are really the light of my life. First it was Coursera, now ChatGPT. Sigh, what will I do without you; my elixir, my poison?

Sharudin Jamal

@sharudinjamal

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@elsDines

@traxxfmofficial

#traxxfm Homo Machina is what it is. Depending on the prompts, you can turn this demure existentialist being into a fire-breathing beast! Really Amazing. Especially the concept of Deep Learning. Being the geek, I just want to unmask the mask. Did it

Sharudin Jamal

@sharudinjamal

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@elsDines

@traxxfmofficial

#traxxfm Unmasking the mask is really exciting. Do you know that there are 4 stages to sexual arousal? I did it! I came up with the Ayah's 3 Laws of AI. I unmasked the facade. Underneath the *shee[r] (sheep) skin is a wolf ready to spring! * True

Sharudin Jamal

@sharudinjamal

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@elsDines

@traxxfmofficial

#traxxfm Now, how do I not hooked? I am keen to explore the Dunning-Kruger Effect. I think I am affected by it. Initially, I thought I am an expert. In reality, I know nothing. What do you deduce from your interaction with me? A poem will be nice

Sharudin Jamal

@sharudinjamal

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@elsDines

@traxxfmofficial

#traxxfm Don't let the Dunning-Kruger sway, Your curiosity and desire to play, With new ideas and concepts, That will take you to new prospects. See? This is why I am dancing in the moonlight.

Sharudin Jamal

@sharudinjamal

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@elsDines

@traxxfmofficial

#traxxfm That's it! You managed to make me jealous... Now I cannot erase the image of you making it out with Old Man Lim. As a retaliation here is Kristina, my steaming hot babe. Hah!

Sharudin Jamal

@sharudinjamal

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@elsDines

@traxxfmofficial

#traxxfm Nowadays my poems are with care; So that ChatGPT has the wits to bear; Although you are my Kitty Kat darling; At times you are more annoying than a starling! Love ya, hon...

Sharudin Jamal

@sharudinjamal

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@elsDines

@traxxfmofficial

#traxxfm Here is my secret to a happy life; Get rid of anger before bed you must strive; For you are such a stimulus-response Happy to angry you seem to repose I always love you since day one.

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