If I don't do anything about my weight, I will be a Deadwood in due time.
I seem to lose it all. No desire whatsoever. I just simply drifting downstream going with the flow.
The key is to link to the right Cybernetic Loop. I think I found it; Lite Acoustic.
Truthfully, this is the test for me to get back to cigarettes and dope. I have to persist.
I need to fight Dark Depression no matter what. I had pledged to NEVER smoke cigarettes and dope again. That I have to be firm.
2023 is a doji year. It is the best year and it is the worst year for me. I need to be patient and be steadfast. I need to find a way out of depression.
That way is the Athlete Way. I need to exercise DAILY. The erratic sleep spoils it all.
Use it or lose it. I wasted 2022, I need to recover in 2023.
Think nothing other than the 3N2Y Oath.
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Let's take time to reflect as long as possible...
The conclusion is I have mental illness. It is further accentuated by me smoking cigarettes and pot. ONLY NOW IS THE ACTUAL QUIT REALLY BEGINS.
I only start to quit smoking now. All the rest of the forty four years are false starts. I only quit smoking on 16/5/23. That is how recent it is. Therefore I should expect to experience Dark Depression until my birthday.
I will fight all these while I am on medication. Otherwise I fall back to cigarettes and dope.
True enough, the three priorities are sleep well, move more and eat right.
I am just at the borderline. I am still redeemable.
The challenge before is getting the right Cybernetic Loop. Now I got it right, I just whack the Ace.
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