So that's what it is. It is nothing more than the mind induced by the fluctuation of the neurotransmitters. That is due to the use of stimulants. Without the stimulants, my thoughts are very ordinary indeed.
So I cannot even trust my thoughts. I can only trust God. So far I managed to do that. I only trust God.
The only way to trust God is through diet and exercise.
I need to eat clean and exercise daily.
I should not be afraid to say no.
So the long and short of it, is not what I say is true. Especially when I was under the influence of stimulants. What counts are those [] (that) make sense to me.
I seriously will not take stimulants any longer.
I don't think I am hooked on dope but oh... Cigarettes are very tempting. I need a strategy not to [more] (smoke) ever again. My consolation is the pitcher plant.
How about another reminder:
I might be pretty crazy to smoke cigarettes again knowing that for the past 3 1/2 years since I quit cigarettes, I still cough grey-green gunk in the morning.
It is really a menace. Smoking is basically the most wasteful activity ever. Definitely, there was a buzz initially from smoking cigarettes. However, the body is quick to build tolerance for Nicotine. After a while, we need the initial dose of nicotine just to feel normal.
All stimulants work in that manner. The poison is in the dose.
I know all these things and I still yearn to smoke. How devilish can that be?
Now that I don't smoke, I can write again. I write because writing makes me happy. It's the best thing to do to burn you[] cash away.
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