15/6/23 ### So this is it. The end of my esoteric journey

 The idea is to scale to one.

Soon, I will overcome inertia.

In the meantime, I just have to roll with the punches.

Damn, the Dark Depression.  I feel like smoking cigarettes.  Manage to shake it off by eating crackers with honey and raisins.

By the look of it, I really stand alone.

I CAN NOT smoke.  That is my arch-enemy.  The minute I smoke, I will fall into the pitcher plant.  I can only count my cessation beginning in 2024.

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