I realized that this reality I created or was created by others for me is only meant for my personal consumption. I didn't really nee[t] (need) to tell the world about it, It is meant only for me.
Whether I am God or a mere gnat, it is none of anybody's business. I did my jo[d] (job) as the Creator's Most Loyal Soldier to my level best and I want to move on from there.
Until the next best thing comes along, I just simply write. This is where I want to be.
My business now is about personal health. I need to be responsible for my own health.
That is all about it. The rest are nothing more than clouds in the coffee. At best it helps. At worst. these side hustles are distractions.
I have to call my own shots.
Sure enough, my biggest enemy is me. Rightfully I should avoid sugar and reduce my weight. It turned out I can't even do that.
I CANNOT WITHSTAND HUNGER!
This is a serious case.
Let's start from scratch. 3N2Y. That is the basic formula. Why is it so difficult for me?
Here is the answer: I need to move more.
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Hey, I got a chan[g]e (chance) to rewrite my life's script. I might as well do it.
I am dying anyway.
That's it, I want to be nothing. All my life I want to be somebody. Forget all that.
Forget that world I know before. That will stop existing when the temperature shifts by 1.5 degrees Celsius.
So [k]now (now) I do what I like; I eat what I please. I wear what I like and most importantly I sleep when I am tired.
I start a new habit. I do Mall Walk one hour a day a[s] (at) 8:00 am.
It's not that I am happy I exercise, it's because I exercise that I am happy.
Bla bla bla.
Honestly, I just enjoy writing. I don't mind dying as a writer. This is so good. OK, I make a deal with myself. No matter what, 3N2Y and house chores.
I want to live free and die happy.
I think I got it.
The same thing with Dark Depression. Just take something sweet.
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