I had lost interest in things that don't concern me directly. As of now I just want to focus on things that matter to me. As for the rest of the stuff, I claim them all under the 23 years of public service.
So yes, I had done my part for humanity. That is no longer my priority. Now I want to look good, feel good, and smell good.
It's like I am in the midst of Paradise Island while a typhoon is raging around me.
Yes indeed, my interest is to get my life in order.
This is my second chance, I better do it right.
All my life, I was a screwup.
This is the time I got it right.
I have to say it, without cigarettes and dope, gone are the esoteric thoughts, the false beliefs, and the delusions. All my life, I was influenced by dopamine fluctuation.
Nowadays there are no grandiose thoughts and at least I remained level-headed.
So that is what mental illness is all about. I was delusional.
I wish I can say that all are contributed to mental illness. They are not. The events especially did happen and the signs are physically visible.
So yes I am delusional but I still deliver my assignment to my level best.
Well, there is a reason for everything. I don't question all the rationality of the epiphanies, I just do.
The key is in doing. However, since I completed the Noktah, no more epiphany.
False beliefs and delusions are rampant among Bipolar patients.
So in conclusion, my real priority is my personal health. The rest is between me and God. Doesn't concern anybody.
Yes, it is easy for me to say since I have crossed the finish line.
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