5/5/23 ### Looks like I still have a long way to go

 I need to get back to my routine.  Otherwise, I will not move to stage two.

In the meantime, my goal is [] (to) quit smoking cigarettes and not consume sugar.

I have to ride the dark depression.

As it is, there are no other concerns that are more relevant.

Yes, I start again with the renewed resolution tomorrow.

I still manage to stay quit.  I must stay quit no matter what.

Why do I have the blues?

Whatevah...

I just ramble and ramble and ramble.  Not concerned with the consequences.

I have to do these:

1. Sleep at 10.00 pm
2. Wakes up at 4:30 am
3. Exercise at 5:00 am

Those are the Holy Grail.  I start with that.

In the meantime, I just flow and time will follow.

I am going to waste my time away.  Not a care in the world.

This is the mildest torment.  By not doing anything.

I have to wait for this depression tide to ride.  The term is very simple; no smoking cigarettes and dope until 31/12/23.

FEELS LIKE HEAVEN

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