>>>#4/5/23 May the Force be on Wesak Day

 Today The Castle Commander's Court speaks.  Yes indeed, the decision is set.  It was decided that we are going for Autonomous Governance and the Zen of Personal Bliss.

I declare my independence today.  

Boy, do I feel like smoking?  But no!  I will not smoke ever.  Smoking means imprisonment.  I am a free man.

Bla, bla, bla.  Yadda, yadda, yadda.  I just ramble to the end.  I will rather be dead.  Unfortunately, death is a long way to *[to] go.

* Maybe I should ask for a quick ending.

Should I be smoking then?  I will be smoking like a chimney if only Lizzie lets me. 

Seriously, smoking is my unnecessary evil nowadays (coincidence with Otto).  I wonder, oh do I wonder.

What do all these signs mean?  What is the next step?

Suicide is very tempting.  Fuck...

I just solve this problem by not smoking.  One month[s] is too early.  I need 6 months.  1 year[s] even.  I don't miss BJ and RR.  I miss the smell of Kretek cigarettes.

Who would have thought that on this auspicious day, I am faced with the challenge to quit cigarettes?

So that's it, my biggest enemy is cigarettes.  No doubt about it.  I made a good decision not to meet RR and BJ.

That is my weakest link on this end.  On the other [a]nd (end) is Munek and Amoi.  I need until December 2024 to stay quit.

This is the real Devil.  This is the final frontier.  So on Wesak Day, my nemesis was revealed.  None other tha[t] (than) the Devil itself. the one that claimed so many lives.  None other than SURYA.

------------------------------------------------

So if this is Wu Wei, then, the message is very clear.  I am to fight depression by regulating dopamine without the help of nicotine.

So I tackle cigarettes.  Next, I deal with 3-in-1 and then Nasi Lemak.  Stick with the roadmap.

But first, NO NO NO CIGARETTES.  That is the killer.  This year is the year I quit for good.  No more distractors.

So here is the deal, every morning I cough the brown gunk.  That means the gunk goes into my tummy.  This [this] is poison,  I am not free from poison as long as I smoke. 

Sarah.  my job is done.  I had taken everybody to Autonomous Governance and the Zen of Personal Bliss.  What is there to it?.  Today I meet the Devil.

The Devil and I are really two opposite polarities.

mm