>>>#25/5/23 Time of certainty had swept into the house of Sha

 I have to wait and see, what the repercussion it has on my bottom line.

As it is I have no mood to run.  I am becoming a person who wants to sit down and do nothing.  That is why I need OMEH.

Or better, I need dope to change my perspective.  

2021 was different.  I was mentally determined.  I think I can recapture the moment again by being thin.  Too early to run perhaps.

I don't know.  What I do know is I got to run if I am going to make it.

Let's put it this way - I AM NOT MOTIVATED.  There is no dopamine juice.  I keep thinking of the Nasi Lemak.

I must persist.

Damn, no mood...  I just do the 1-hour walk.  Gosh, I don't feel like it.  I just want to sit around and do nothing.

OK fine, just do nothing today.

This is major fatigue.  I am so unmotivated.  I am hungry too.

That proves one point; you cannot live on karomah alone.  Unless it is meant to be that I don't run.  To know for sure I must persist.  Then only will I know if I am not required to scale Bukit Kiara.

To make things easy, I will walk daily until my birthday.

I'll walk daily for the next 3 months.  Only then do I decide if my destiny is to scale Bukit Kiara.  What is so hard about that?  Why so much resistance?

CCC unanimously said, no need.  I no longer need to visit Bukit Kiara even.  

"It's a done deal, Sha,"  said Ar Rahman 55.  "You made it to the Peak of Sidratul Muntaha with ONE TRIBE.  The end of the story."

"Now, your story is the story of the Golden Reign of Da Wood Dragon."  

"Just live your life, Sha.  Don't give a hoot about other people.  Live your life autonomously.  The sooner you get rid of the past S Curve the better for you.  Look forward to a life of a walker.  Just keep on walking.

FORGO THE 21 KM BUKIT KIARA HILL RUN.  You are already the King of the Hill.  Trust you Kigatsuku.

I will persist.

This is my dream.  Long before you all are around.

"Sha, you don't need to prove anything.  You made it."  

"Let's focus on walking.  Remember, you wanted to reduce your footprint."

This is not right.

I WILL WALK EVERY DAY UNTIL MY BIRTHDAY.  THEN I RUN.

 mm