I am fighting the very thing that makes me OK; nicotine. How else do I make myself OK? Sugar indulgence. These are all dopamine voids.
The only positive outlet is exercise. When I exercise, I have dopamine surges and I don't have to depend on substances to feel good.
I know if I smoke, I will be addicted. So no smoking no matter what. I have an addictive behavior.
No matter how dark is the depression, I will not fall for nicotine and sugar addictions. I will persist.
What is the plan for me? I quit cigarettes 3 years ago. Even as little as smoking a box last month got me into the addictive mode again.
Very very dangerous...
So the plan is to start running again tomorrow. Sleep at 10 pm, and wake up at 4:30 am.
Let me be in the 5 am Club.
So it's back to ranting on the Blog.
The most important thing is to get the right Mental Model.
There is no wind. I need to wait for the wind. Tomorrow the wind will come. Tomorrow we shall continue with our voyage.
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